I miss that real you. You remember that time when our conversation was on purchasing another car for myself. You said something like this, “Someone’s gotta tell you this…you can’t just buy anything you like”. I miss those days when you were…just…you. You felt free and part of my life. And I felt like I was part of yours. You spoke to me as someone who genuinely cared about me. It’s strange how things can change over time but memories can be treasured for a lifetime.
No one can change those or take those away from you. You can hold on to them for as long as you like. You can carry on with a hope that one day…maybe they can be…how they once were. And maybe in time…I can show you in person…through my actions…that the words I spoke are not merely words. That I really mean and stand by them. Never fail to consider that there are genuine reasons behind everything and maybe they are more related to saving your butt from getting into trouble than anything else. Ever thought about it that way? You didn’t…did ya?
Today, I had to say goodbye to a dear friend of mine. Just before he left, we were talking about what he was going to do with his life. During that conversation, he said to me, “Bro…I’m not like you. I am a very simple guy. I live life as it comes and I take decisions without looking back. I like to live a life without regrets”. That really made me think. He is not a Christian but he sure seems to live how we as God’s children were instructed to live. In His word, we read, “…do not worry about your life, what you will eat or what you will drink; nor about your body, what you will put on” (Matthew 6:25 NKJV).
I think often times we end up focusing so much on what we need to achieve, where we want to be in life, and the kind of things we plan on doing to get there. The fact is, maybe we are crossing that fine line that exists between diligently working on our lives and seeking the plan that God has for us. Over the past few months, I remember being so worried about not having or losing some specific things in my life that I really badly wanted. This made me put some people in pressure and caused them to feel restless too. What did we end up achieving from all this? Nothing!
Looking back at it now, I was thinking, how wonderful it would’ve been if I just took some time off to consult God first on what I desired and continued to seek His will on those things. Where there is restlessnesses, I can bet every dollar I got (Just as the saying goes – Not encouraging bets in anyway), there is no God there. Where there is peace and stillness, that’s where God is. He often speaks to us in quietness. So what I’ve learned and am still learning, is to “chillax”, to see how things unfold, and enjoy God taking you through this wonderful journey of life.
In all this, continue to relentlessly pray for those things that you desire. Trust me, what you think is hard to achieve is actually quite easy (Eg. Success in business) but what you think is easy to get is actually extremely hard. What I’ve noticed in praying to God is that if your heart is towards that one or two things, prayer with tears is inevitable. It comes naturally because you desire it so much in your heart.
This way, if God does grant you – you will be so grateful to him for grace and mercy to grant you those things. Because truthfully speaking, we really don’t deserve anything we get in this life. But if He does not grant you those things you desired and prayed for by shedding tears every morning, that’s okay too. After all, He is the beginning and the end, isn’t He? He knows what will happen before it even happens. He has everything under His control. He knows the best for us.
“Look at the birds. They don’t plant or harvest or store food in barns, for your heavenly Father feeds them. And aren’t you far more valuable to him than they are?” – Matthew 6:26 (NLT). “So if you sinful people know how to give good gifts to your children, how much more will your heavenly Father give good gifts to those who ask him” Matthew 7:11 (NLT).